Nath's Vault

Jedna od onih ultimativnih stvari koja pogađa točno i bez promašaja.

I’m not ready for this
Though I thought I would be
I can’t see the future
Though I thought I could see
I don’t want to leave you
Even though I have to
I don’t want to love you
I still do
 

Need some time to find myself
You wouldn’t live with it
Can I go my own way
Can I pray my own way
I don’t want to leave you
Oh I need you
Am I ready for this
Did I think I would be
Can I see the future
No, I can’t see
 

I don’t want to leave you
Even though I have to
I don’t want to love you
I still do
I still do
I still do
- The Cranberries

Other than you
I want no one
If I cant have you
I want to be alone
 

Anyone else isn't you
And if their are not you
I don't want to know
 
- Field Mice
A tko bi rekao.

Bolje je da više nista ne čujem o tebi, da bude po tvome, da kapituliram.
Najgore je to što je to možda samo trenutna slabost.

Prožimaš me jutrima kada sam najranjiviji.
Tek bačen u surovu svakodnevicu iz toplog zagrljaja hladnog kreveta.
 

Imagination.

Tjeraš me od sebe a misliš neprimjetno.
Nagovaraš me da ostanem (...) al bezuspješno
Na duže staze, nikako.

Po walkman-u mi se stalno vrti jedna te ista kazeta. Selekcija najboljih stvari 80-tih. Ah te godine. Dolaze brzo, odlaze još brže. Uglavnom tu se može naći svega.

Fiction Factory - Feels Like Heaven
Talk Talk - Such A Shame
Hovard Jones - What Is Love
China Chrisis - Wishful Thinking
OMD - Souvenir
Queen - Radio Ga-Ga
Thompson Twins - Doctor, Doctor
Nick Kershaw - Wouldnt It Be Good
Cindy Lauper - Time After Time
Phil Cillons - Against All Odds
Crowded House - Don't Dream It's Ower
Bruce Springsteen - I'm On Fire
Human League - Louise
Kajagoogo - Turn Yor Back On Me
Duran Duran - The Reflex
Tears For Fears - Everybody Wants To Rule The World
Billy Idol - Eyes Without A Face
John Wait - Missing You
Giorgio Moroder & Phillip Oakey - Together In Electric Dreams
Culture Club - Love Is Love
Matt Bianco - Half A Minute
Thomas Dolby - I Scared Myself
Latin Quarter - Radio Africa
Izgleda da ću totalno izlizati tu traku u sljedećim mjesecima.

Ah, mislim da bih mogao udariti jedan mali odmor od loga, da ne napišem nešto za čime bih kasnije zažalio.
Grozna faza.

Okaljana

Možda bude kao što Thom veli, možda bude kao što ja želim.

i am gone
everybody's raging
and these fruits
they still taste of poison
 

i won't be around
when you really need me
i can't sleep
why can't someone hold me?
i need warm
my restless body cracks and moans
 

i won't have the strength
when you really need me
 
- Radiohead

Ostavila si mrak upaljen
Onog devetnaestog
Ostavila me budnim
Ali slijepim, ustvari
Ostavila da sanjam
Snove o tebi

Znaš da sam izgubljen
Bez Sjevernjače iznad sebe
A Magelanovi Oblaci
Samo me još više zbunjuju.

Iako je več dugo ova stvar polako blijedila i gubila svoj smisao, u zadnje vrijeme sjeda toliko dobro. Raspiruje maštu, budi osjetila, udahnjuje novi život.
... 

It’s not always true that time heals all wounds
There are wounds that you don’t wanna heal
The memories of something really good
Something truly real, that you never found again
 
- Human League.

Mlade kosti same liječe svoj lom, a stare ostaju slomljene zauvijek.

Heaven is closer now today
The sound is in my ears
I can't believe the things you say
They echo what I fear
Twisting the bones until they snap
I scream but no one knows
You say I'm familiar cold to touch
And then you turn and go
- Fiction Factory

I Kakva bi to ljubav bila kad ju nakon raspada. ne bi zamijenila tuga. Duga tuga, slatka patnja, gorka istina, vrišteća praznina.
 
Tugujte, i ljubite koliko tugovati možete. Samo uvenuti nemojte. 

Volim te kad si sa mnom.
Mrzim kad nisi.
Valjda.