Nath's Vault

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he waits for her to understand
but she won't understand at all
she waits all night for him to call
but he won't call anymore
he waits to hear her say
forgive
but she just drops her pearl-black eyes
and prays to hear him say
i love you
but he tells no more lies
 

he waits for her to sympathize
but she won't sympathize at all
she waits all night to feel his kiss
but always wakes alone
he waits to hear her say
forget
but she just hangs her head in pain
and prays to hear him say
no more
i'll never leave again
                                   

how did we get this far apart?
we used to be so close together
how did we get this far apart?
i thought this love would last forever
- The Cure
Kad bi se samo protegnula u konstantu, kao ja.

Jer već je prošlo dosta vremena a ništa se promjenilo nije. A ni naznaka nema.

Do you remember me,
I'm just a shadow now.
This is where I used to be,
Right here beside you.
Sometimes I call your name,
High on a summer breeze.
What I would give,
To feel the sunlight on my face.
What I would give,
To be lost in your embrace.
- Delerium

Jel se sječaš Jabučice:

Won’t you come see about me?
I’ll be alone, dancing you know it baby
 

Tell me your troubles and doubts
Giving me everything inside and out and
Love’s strange so real in the dark
Think of the tender things that we were working on
 

Slow change may pull us apart
When the light gets into your heart, baby
 

Don’t you forget about me
- Simple Minds

Vidi ti ovo. Uvijek sam želio saznati šta su Cocteau Twins-i htjeli reći svojim pjesmama. I konačno:
Road, River And Rail

Really far away
Though those choices can't be told
Naked and caught on the Île de la Cité
 

Oh holy pew is of eleventh century
Full of shame and a fearless decay
Formed into an angel
From some flower
Fabulous and dreamery
Flame on the crown in her influence
 

From out of the Bayeux
See him with hair pulled
Blue pants suit and no waist
Through Paris we'd stroll
From out of the Bayeux
 

My destiny
Seventeen my mind was seized
Into the fold
When you weren't feeling hated then
No boiling thirst
It was a focus of adjectives
 

Road, river and rail
So unblemished and natural
As mother's daughter
Today she'll follow road, river and rail
Originalni tekst imam negdje u weblogu.

Life is like a cigarette, smoke it to the Butt.
- jedan od fakata.

Je li Gordon svojedobno gadno zaglibio. Je li ga ja pratim u stopu?

Every breath you take
Every move you make
Every bond you break
Every step you take
I’ll be watching you
 

Every single day
Every word you say
Every game you play
Every night you stay
I’ll be watching you
- The Police

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Cigarette is a substitute for your mother's nipple!
- jedan od fakata.

Op-pa. Tjedan dana ijednog nekog novog weblog zapisa. Hm dal to znači da se odvikavam od iskrice? Ili je to samo zatišje pred buru.

Naletio na obradu stvari "Mad World" od Tears For Fears. I koliko god mi je originalna stvar  izzzzzzvanredna, toliko mi je ova obrada neizmjerno bolja. Izvodi je meni potpuno nepoznati Gary Jules i postoji na soundtracku "Donnie Darko", meni također nepoznatom filmu. Upola je sporija od originala i jedini instrument koji možete čuti je klavir. Inače nisam neki ljubitelj obrada jer se u 95% slučajeva nemogu mjeriti sa originalima. Ali ova stvar je apsolutno nenadjebiva.
Stvar nije toliko nova ali to samo pokazuje koliko sam posljednjih godina bio totalno neaktivan glede pronalaženja nove glazbe za moje umorne uši.

Naletjeh na ...

And I feel your warmth
And it feels like home
And there’s someone
Calling on the telephone
Let’s stay home
It’s cold outside
And I have so much
To confide to you
- DM

Ili je nema ili se skriva!
Eh mala moja.

I ponekad ga je vrijedno poslušat.

Long years ago I fell in love
With a lady proud and fair
So passionate were she and I
We made fire in the air
I loved her more than life itself
She loved me just the same
And it broke my heart
To think we'd part if she ended the affair
 

But I was brutal, I was ignorant
I was cruel I was brash
I never gave a damn about
The beauty that I smashed
No sadist I, I took delight
In making my Love cry
Now I'd pray for a single kiss from her
To be lashed and crucified
 

And now I feel this lady fair
Can never more be mine
Long gone are night in my lonely bed
All suffering and crying
And though I fear that through this life
She'll only call me friend
'Till I'm dead and buried in my grave
My Love will never end
- Shane McGowan and The Popes

Da se malo prebacimo na njemački. I oni imaju stvari za totalnu komu. A pogađaju ništa lošije od Cranberriesa, samo malo rijeđe.

Langeweile besäuft sich meilenweit
Ich zähle die Ringe an meiner Wand
Dort draußen alles dreht sich still um nichts herum
Und ich male Deine Schatten an jede Wand
Es kommt so anders als man denkt
Herz vergeben Herz verschenkt

Ich gab Dir meine Liebe gab Dir Zeit Geduld und Geld
Ich legte mein Leben in Deine kleine Welt
Wer auch immer Dir jetzt den Regen schenkt
Ich hoffe es geht ihm schlecht
Wer auch immer Dich jetzt durch die Nacht bringt
Bitte glaub ihm nicht

Es kommt so anders als man denkt
Herz vergeben Herz verschenkt
Es ist so ohne Dich
Es ist so widerlich ich will das nicht
Denkst Du vielleicht auch mal an mich
Es ist so ohne Dich
Und wenn Du einsam bist
Denkst Du vielleicht auch mal an mich

Ich nähte mir ein Bettbezug aus der Zeit die wir hatten
Und trink mir alte Wunden an so tief und allein
Kein Berg den ich nicht versetzt hab
Zog jede Chance an den Haaren herbei
Für ein lebenlang zu Leben
So wild und so frei

Es kommt so anders als man denkt
Herz vergeben Herz verschenkt

Es ist so ohne Dich
Es ist so widerlich ich will das nicht
Denkst Du vielleicht auch mal an mich
Es ist so ohne Dich
Und wenn Du einsam bist
Denkst Du vielleicht auch mal an mich
- Selig
 

Ah, i vikend je konačno gotov. Još samo da prođe i V-dan i bit ću ko nov.