Heaven is near

stupid silly game
really not easy to play
wish I could stay
but my life is so much pain.
every day is stress to me
you left me behind
took all from me
beat me to the ground
(I'll never ever be around!)
     Want to explode
     I'm on the wrong road
     Want to be gone
     I don't have nothing to go on!!!
you drove me insane
i'll cut my vein
and disappear into rain.
feeling my cold breath
going into death
why am I crying???
I'm happy!! I'm dieing!!
didn't find happines
in the world of darkness,
fuck that!!! that's behind me!!!
i'm calling God:
light me!! light me!!
(you'll never ever find me!!!)
     Want to explode
     I'm on the wrong road
     Want to be gone
     I don't have nothing to go on!!!
finally I escape
not feeling pain
walking into light
saying: GOOD BYE !!!
to my old life