simon

than anything else i'd like to be self-sufficient, unemotional and cold, like.. like someone i know.
i take things hard, people get to me, i feel too much and at the same time i feel empty, futile and alone almost all the time.
i do so many things just to distract myself from what i feel inside. all i've "done" with this life is a biproduct of running. it's nothing and it means nothing.
i am empty. i am the emptiest person i know.