simon

nije fora, "kopirati" tudje nickove i pisati sranja.
i ne, ja nisam red_griffin_  
("lijepo" je znati da sam, i kad pišem next to nothing, najpoznatija osoba na ovom weblogu. ako sam vam ja najzanimljivija, do te mjere da me se mora konstantno komentirati, pa i kopirati, jadniji ste no što sam mislila)
 

than anything else i'd like to be self-sufficient, unemotional and cold, like.. like someone i know.
i take things hard, people get to me, i feel too much and at the same time i feel empty, futile and alone almost all the time.
i do so many things just to distract myself from what i feel inside. all i've "done" with this life is a biproduct of running. it's nothing and it means nothing.
i am empty. i am the emptiest person i know.

why do i keep in touch?
just cuz i cannot flush you out?
not reason enough.

Roaming through this darkness
I'm alive but I'm alone
Part of me is fighting this
But part of me is gone

part of ME is lost. nothing else.
something good and happy and shiny got cut out. removed.
replaced with its oposite? or just stayed empty..

screwed up is being so VOLATILE that you never have any idea of what you're gonna do next?!

the happiest moments in your life. hold on to the feeling. never let it go. never forget. 
it's the only thing of value you will ever have.
(and yea, i'm talkin to myself)

know what it means. heard it, loud and clear. i just don't wanna know.
so what's the solution? for some it's a new job. for some a new bf, a new haircut, a long voyage.. all in essence a dive into the unknown.
 

are manipulative interpretation of thoughts.
actions speak the truth. most of the time, anyway..

darndest thing, trust.. once gone, 4ever gone.
no trust, no closeness. and no proximity.
takes A LOT 2change my mind..from good 2bad or v.v.
last but not least, i have a long memory.
 

at the curve of my neck as i brush my teeth,
i see his face snuggled in it.
 
 

u say 4ever.. never.. always.. u should know that there is no time limit, no exceptions.
i can say 4ever. i can say always.
i cannot say never, as i always slip on this one..
 

how some people stun you
and you remain stunned
by them
forever.
 

nisam mislila da cu izgubiti volju. ali evo, izgubila sam je.
stalkers DO exist. world is more spookie than i imagined.

the hell off.
is there a part of this you don't understand?
then you must be a frustrated aging yanker.
congratulations.